Behind us is the town... in fact we have the school parking lot RIGHT behind us. We have a double lot, so we have plenty of room for the gardens that I would like to have next year. We moved in to late in the year for me to do anything productive this year. I even have room to have a small herb garden, a separate medicinal garden and a large vegetable garden. Plus space around buildings and trees to have the non-useful flowers. So what's the problem? The roommates. We, Thor and I, cannot afford the place on our own as of yet. He is working, but he is still only temporary yet. Once (and if) he gets hire on permanent he will receive a pay raise and have guaranteed hourly work. Only then will we be able to afford the place...barely. We wouldn't have money for anything else... even gas in the car, but we would have the place to ourselves. I have no issue with the one roommate that is helping with the bills and rent... I have a problem with his..... in short, his whore. She has no income so she doesn't pay ANYTHING towards rent and bills. She has been here just as long as the rest of us (which is 7 weeks) and she has only washed dishes twice, has never vacuumed, never cleaned the house, never done laundry, takes 30 minute showers, eats 3 times a day (and no... the rest of us don't eat that much a day), never cares for "her" animals, and expects us (Thor and I) to give her money when she asks for it ("as a favor to the other roommate"). The ONLY thing she does around her is have sex with the roommate whenever he wants it. So, yes... that makes her a whore.... she gets paid for only having sex with a person. And it is pissing me off. I can't kick her out cause she is on the lease, and he says that he has already talked to her about being lazy, but nothing has come of it. She is 18 years old and wants to be treated like an adult, but my 13 year old has proven to be more mature than her. We, Thor and I, give the roommate $45 a week to pay for our portion of the rent, (we pay ALL the bills, even his portion, so we take that amount out of our portion of the rent. And he asked us to split up our rent portion into weekly amounts so that he has money every week instead of just at the beginning of the month since he only gets paid once a month.) We gave him the $45 last Friday but on Monday they were asking for money to put gas in the tank. So... where did the $45 go in 2 days.... that would have given them a half tank of gas.... but they ran out before the weekend was over? The sad thing is, we've know the roommate for years... so we know that if it was just him the tank would have been full, or at least half full, even today. But he doesn't seem to know where any of his money is going. Yup... he has his head so far up her ass that he can't see how she is taking advantage of him. He thinks she is letting him be who he is, that she is not trying to change him. But she is.... just by taking away his options manipulatively so he doesn't see it.
So, that is what is going on here. My long term plans have only been altered, not changed. I still plan on getting my degree and moving out to Montana. What has changed is that even after I move I will have to continue to help pay for this place. We are in a land contract. And Thor and I agree that this is our best option to get a place of our own, right now. Even though he hasn't said it, he believes that my plans have changed. I will help to pay for the place, cause then I will know that I have a place to stay when I come to visit. And I will also know that my daughter will have a roof over her head and the bills will be paid while she is here. I know that she wants to move with me out there, but in two years she might just want to stay to finish school.
So.. I have finally been able to start paying for the additional fees to finish getting registered for school. I sent out a check to get my high school transcripts sent to MSTC. With Thor's next big check, which is Nov 2, I will be paying the other two, plus taking the placement tests next month. I will also be renewing my temps so that I can start working on my license again. Hopefully this time I will be able to get more practice in so that I can feel confident when I take the tests.
I still have that dream though. The extravagant one where I get hired as a housekeeper/cook for a ranch out there. Of course my boss(es) are hot cowboys... but then who doesn't want hot cowboys as their dream bosses? I know, I know... I should stop dreaming impossible dreams. But then without dreams a person will never have goals, right?
Anyway. I am done for now. Just as a warning though. Most likely I will be on here regularly to bitch about my roommates and husband. So a lot of the blogging I will do will be repeat of previous ranting.
