Been a while. Not to much going on. Still no school nor a license. Have another chance at a job. Don't think it will pan out though. I have fallen so far that there is just no getting back up for me anymore. I am stuck here, where I don't want to be, for the rest of by forsaken life. I just know it. I still haven't figured out what the hell I did in my past that was so horrible to cause all this bad karma.

The dreams still sit there, in my head. I see them even when awake. I know they are just that, dreams. And dreams of the fallen don't come true.

Yeah... don't think I should go on with this line of thinking right now. So, I will sign off.